The moments before death
“These are my thoughts while I was reading Paulo Coelho’s novel ‘Veronika decides to die’. I wrote this as a reminder to my future self.”
Death always comes unexpectedly, accidents, diseases, or being murdered by someone obviously there are exceptions like suicide or execution. I was reading the book “Veronika decides to die” by Paulo Coelho. “Honestly, here I am, with my days literally numbered, giving importance to remarks made by people I’ve never even seen before, people who soon I’ll never see again. And yet I suffer and get upset, I want to attack and defend. Why waste my time? ” These are the lines from the book, at first glance you may don’t get what it means but I can tell you what I conclude what I realized, some time life is unexpected and most of us die unexpected, there is no denying it but let me ask you what is the meaning of ‘unexpecting’. No! I’m not referring to the dictionary meaning. to me ‘unexpecting’ is more like a scenario, I’m not sure I am using the correct words to describe it, but anyway, the unexpected death will only happen when we expecting there is a tomorrow, there is something that has to happen tomorrow. For example, If I finished my exam and the result will be announced tomorrow and I’m eagerly waiting for it, If you find yourself in this or a similar situation like this, there is a high probability that you could die today. But now I getting confused, hope is something which gives meaning to life, we all hope for a better future, better food, better clothes, better family there is so much thing to be better. So abandoning hope is not an option, personally, I don’t afraid of dying, I’m only afraid of the time before death.
The time where I will lose my earnings, my family, regrets, slowly I will completely be drained of hope and death. just think about it, If I abandon hope way before that then this time will be longer, and it not cool. So abandoning hope is out of the question, then what else, what else could you do to soften these harsh times? The answer is obvious, live life fullest, don’t pull any punches, just complete the task at hand. This is unexpected, I thought that I would have to think hours and hours to find a solution for this problem, but this is too early, I don't think there is any point thinking about it, we have to think about it, I already started to implement this to my life this is not the first book I read, nor the first time I find my self in an awakening moment but unlike the previous encounters I did wrote my thoughts into an actual paper. I always dreamed to write something like this, something from my mind, but today it becomes a reality. I am so intgreged about it. Today I am promising that I will not postpone anything again I will focus on the task at hand and I will not wait for a better future to come I will make my future as I go.
Before I stop this and swift my mind to the household jobs let me share with you one last thing, while I was writing this, I got a video call from my old friends, normally I would ignore it, even if I was wishing somebody could talk to me, but today I answered it. isn't magical? Yes, it is. To me, it is a miracle. I should probably stop now before I lose my sanity, So that’s my silly thought which almost took me two hours. See you around me. I hope!
